And I feel bad about that! I feel bad because of the reason why they annoy me. I think I expected too much from my [ex?] suitor, and I think that’s why it didn’t work out. Yeah, I liked him…and I may have made the mistake of telling other people. I have a feeling one of them told him, which probably was what gave him the go-ahead. But I digress. You are probably going to think I’m being ridiculous, hypocritical, and mean when I tell you why his updates turn me off.

Our 4 year age difference is apparent. I’m older. He’s still a kid to me, and that’s what his updates make him seem like.

I’m not perfect at being an eloquent writer, but I can’t stand his constant use of “slang” words, misspellings, and lack of punctuation and capitalizations. Is it so wrong to want someone who was at least at the same intellectual level as I am? Is it wrong of me to judge him for his grammatical misgivings? I’m not saying he’s not smart. I used to type and spell my words differently to fit in with other people on my friends list. He might still be at that stage, when I have out grown it long ago.

I don’t know, man. I feel horrible for thinking this last thing, but he just wasn’t what I expected. It’s like I got my hopes up for nothing. A lot of things went wrong on my first date, and a lot turned me off. I didn’t think I was the type of person who would expect so much from someone, but that’s what I did. And when he didn’t deliver, I got disappointed. So maybe that was my fault. No one is who you think they are until you get to know them a little more. We should never build someone up in our heads, and put them on a pedestal before we get to know them. You’ll only disappoint yourself, and you’ll end up hurting someone else. You’ll only have yourself to blame…something I’m doing right now.

I do think it’s a good learning experience, though. At least I know what/who I want now. I didn’t think I had a type, but I guess I do.