I made plans to have dinner with a whole bunch of friend at Red Robin for my birthday on Monday night. A couple of my friends can’t make it because they’re busy with school. I’m a pretty understanding person when it comes to school. It’s not that I’m mad at my friends. I’ve been there before. I know what stress from so much school work feels like. You just have so much work that you can’t even spare a couple of hours for anything else. It sucks! I don’t want to make them feel bad for not going to my birthday dinner. That’s the last thing I want to do.

It’s just. These two girls have been super great friends for the past year, and I miss them. My birthday just won’t be the same without them. I spent it with them last year, and I had such a fun time. They’ve really been a blessing, and I’m really sad to the point of tears that they won’t be at my birthday dinner. I got their messages right after work, and I literally sat in my car for about 10 minutes trying to tell myself that it’ll be OK. I still have a good handful of guest coming, and I’ll still have a good time. I mean, at least I’ll have my high school best friend there. She’s also important to me, and I’m thrilled that at least she’ll be there. I haven’t celebrated my birthday with her in a long time. So, right now I’m just trying to list all the good things about this coming Monday night. I’m trying psych myself up again. It’s not really working very well, though.