…sucks!!! On one hand, I want to workout. I was planning on going to kickboxing, lifting weights, then go on the elliptical for 45 minutes while I watch Felicity on my phone. On the other hand, I’m so very tired from work. I just have zero energy right now. All I want to do is continue re-watching Felicity on Netflix, and maybe sleep super early. I don’t want to make excuses, but I just…I don’t know if I NEED a break today, or I SHOULD take a break today. Is there a difference? Someone tell me it’s OK? I’ve probably asked that before, but I feel like I’m doing something bad by not working out today. 

Why am I always freezing after a workout? Brrrrrr!!!!

ETA: Also, are squats supposed to make my butt feel like I fell on them? ‘Cause that’s how they feel right now. Our instructor worked us hard this morning! I officially hate burpees!

=( Part of the reason why I haven’t been able to wake up at a reasonable time to get to the gym early in the morning is because I haven’t been sleeping at a reasonable hour. I missed Bootcamp this morning because I slept through my alarm. Well, I actually woke up to turn it off, and I didn’t put it on snooze. Tomorrow morning I want to take my first Cross Train class at 5am, so I do have to go to bed now. It’s already late, but I’ll deal with the consequences tomorrow. Wish me luck. I’m nervous about taking this class.

I’m trying to convince myself that it’s OK that I haven’t been to the gym in two whole days. I need a break, but I’m so behind in my progress right now. I feel like I’m stuck again, and I don’t want to weigh myself tomorrow. I’m so tired. My muscles are sore. The tendon in my left ankle hurts. I don’t know if that’s a cause for concern. I’ve had pain there before, and it went away eventually. I think it might be because I’m running more, and I switched to that from the elliptical. Oh, yeah….and my right hip hurts. So do my knees. I’ve gone straight to bed after work both yesterday & today. I woke up last night at 11:30pm, and went back to sleep around 2:30am. Which only gave me an hour and a half more of sleep before I have to wake up to go to the gym at 4:30am. So that didn’t happen. I woke up at 6am, showered, and was late for work. Yay. 

I know, I know. Whine whine whine. I do want to go to the gym. I feel awful that I haven’t gone in the past two days. Like, my mind really wants to go, but my body is too tired to want to go. Right now, I’m looking at the clock, and I can get in a solid hour and a half of workout if I go now. AGH. IDK. Tomorrow, I’m definitely hitting the gym. I’m going to run, do weights, and some core. I promise. Maybe I’ll go soak in a bath right now. -_-

I will finally have a couple Mondays off for the next two weeks, so I need to take advantage of all the good classes at the gym.

Tomorrow’s workout will consist of:

Bootcamp @ 5am-615am

Interval Edge @ 730am-830am (This will be the first time I will be taking this class, and as always when I’m taking a new class, I’m scared for my life. Haha!) “High intensity of cardio (30 seconds-1 minute) alternating with rest of lower intensity strength, and core work. Step platform may be used.”

Zumba @ 945am-1045am

Zumba @ 530pm-630pm

Classes I might take, but still thinking about it:

Piyo Fusion @ 1215pm-115pm

Bootcamp Express @ 8pm-845pm

Seriously, I’m not doing so good in the weight loss department. I think I’ve reached a plateau, and it’s pissing me off. I’m stuck in a rut, and I don’t know how to get out. On the bright side, at least I’m not GAINING weight. But seriously, WTF?!

Tomorrow is the start of a new week. I’m going to try switching up my workout. I’m going to try getting in an hour of workout before work. That means waking up at 4am to get to the gym by 4:30am. I’m planning on 30 minutes of cardio, and 30 minutes alternating day by day between weights and core. Then I’ll do my usual workouts in the afternoon/evening after work. Tomorrow will be a fun day because one of my friends will be joining me in Yoga & Zumba. And she’ll also be able to help me pass those weighted balls from side to side. It’s one core workout I can’t do because I rarely have a gym buddy. =(

Also, I gave up chocolate for lent. I’m probably already in trouble because my cousin’s wedding shower will have lots of chocolate involved. FML. 

Anyway, I just thought I’d say this all here. Maybe this will give me some incentive. It’s not that I’m doing this for everyone else. I’m still doing this for me. I just need a little push, and letting what I’m going to do be known to all of you who follow me will be that push. It’s like I now have an obligation to fill. But the word ‘obligation’ seems a little negative. Let’s call it motivation, or inspiration. Just something to help me reach a goal by the end of this week, and that’s to reach my halfway mark(-44 lbs). Which reminds me, my new UWG is now 130 pounds. That’s right smack dab in the middle of the healthy weight range for someone my height.

So…thank you & goodnight. 

That bootcamp class wasn’t so bad! I mean, it was still pretty intense but it was also pretty freaking awesome. So many lunges! I’ve never felt my butt muscles hurt like this before. It’s like I fell on my ass, or something. Different pain from spin class. My shirt is soaking wet, and I feel awesome! Right now I’m on a stationary bike waiting to take the Kick Abs! class. Fifty minutes on the bike! GO!

It’s 430am. I’m up…obviously. Only got two ‘likes’ to go to bootcamp. I don’t know if I should be happy about that. Haha. That’s why I’m gonna go anyway. Doesn’t make sense does it. Think of it this way, sometimes you don’t know how badly you wanted to do something until the opportunity gets taken away from you. So I guess deep down inside I do want to go to bootcamp. Now, excuse me. I have to get ready to put myself through hell. But I’m going to appreciate it later. ^.^

I’m thinking of taking a 5:15am Bootcamp class tomorrow. I’m kind of scared. Haha. I haven’t taken one since that one time on Christmas Eve, and that was pretty freakin’ intense! I was not expecting that. The guy teaching tomorrow looks scary. I’ve seen his classes in the morning before. AAHH!! *hides* But I need to kick my ass into gear. Had a bad chocolate binge today.

Tomorrow’s gym schedule may consist of:

Bootcamp (MAYBE) 5:15am-6:15am

Kick Abs 7:15am-8:15am

Basic Yoga 8:45am-9:45am

Piyo Fusion 12:15pm-1:15pm (A renewing and centering combination of dance based toning, Pilates, ball, and yoga that will promote a lean and flexible body)

Zumba 5:30pm-6:30pm

Zumba 7pm-8pm

I love my days off. I can take advantage of all the good classes throughout the day. I don’t have a life anyway. Don’t let this list impress you, though. I might not even take all those classes. I want to, but we’ll see.

Still not sure about the Bootcamp class, though. If you guys think I should take it, ‘like’ this post. If I get at least 6 ‘likes’, I’ll take it. GO! GO! GO!

People who stand too fucking close to me!

I am not responsible for any of your injuries if I kick you in the head!!

I know I’m in a Zumba class right now, and we hardly do any kicking, but STILL!!

My body is here. My mind, however, is not. No motivation whatsoever. I’m very worried about my progress, and I have no one else to blame but myself. No excuses. I’m stuck in a rut, and I don’t know how to get out.