Awesome job Gazel, you look SO great :-) and I’ve been at a plateau for a long time, but that’s just because I haven’t been trying, lol. But I am at least happy that I now know I can maintain when it seems like before all I could ever do was gain

Thanks! And a big hooray for maintaining and NOT gaining! =D

Two bad things about this month. My eating habit was horrible, and I failed at the 30 Day Shred. 

I can whine about it like I usually do, or I can get back on track. I’m looking at it like this, I don’t have a due date for my weight loss. This is a life long thing. I have a weight goal, but I don’t have a date on when I should reach that goal by. Maybe I should, but I feel like that’s just putting more pressure on myself than I already have. I mean, sure…I have my cousin’s wedding to look forward to, but that’s not until December. Even if I don’t reach my weight goal by then, I will still be at the best weight my body has ever been in I don’t know how long. I will still rock my bride’s maid dress. =D (I’M SO EXCITED! I’VE NEVER BEEN A BRIDES MAID BEFORE!!!) But yeah, NO RUSH. So I had a couple of bad months. I haven’t quit yet. 

health-diary:

Hardly anything fits and it all feels baggy and blagh. But I’m trying not to buy too much until just before I go to California. I’m worried that if I buy stuff now, it won’t fit in a month and a half. I mean, if I lose another 6 inches this month, they definitely won’t fit.

I have the same problem. It’s frustrating. I remember months back when I read how @thismakesmedurable was frustrated about everything being baggy. I never imagined that I would be in the same situation. I should be happy about how many inches I’ve lost, but it doesn’t make me happy when I can’t find anything to wear anymore.

One of my co-workers the other day told me I was lucky to be losing so much weight. I beg to differ.

I remember reading a post a while back by Runa, aka runalovegood, when she was getting ready to go to Leakycon. Someone told her she was lucky to be going. She also disagreed with that. She worked hard to earn money to even go to Leakycon. If she was lucky, she would have won an all expenses paid trip to the convention. But she didn’t. I bet it would have been nice, though. =)

Anyway, luck had nothing to do with my weight loss either. I worked hard to get to the weight I am now. It was damn hard work, and for someone think of it of just plain old luck is disheartening to me because it’s like they just totally disregard all the hard work I put/am putting in. 

I’m sure the person thought they meant it as a compliment, but I just really want people to realize that losing weight requires hard work. There’s no quick fix, and luck has nothing to do with it. It’s not up to the hand that draws your name out of a hat. It’s up to you to make the decision to lose weight, become fit, and eat healthy. 

…sucks!!! On one hand, I want to workout. I was planning on going to kickboxing, lifting weights, then go on the elliptical for 45 minutes while I watch Felicity on my phone. On the other hand, I’m so very tired from work. I just have zero energy right now. All I want to do is continue re-watching Felicity on Netflix, and maybe sleep super early. I don’t want to make excuses, but I just…I don’t know if I NEED a break today, or I SHOULD take a break today. Is there a difference? Someone tell me it’s OK? I’ve probably asked that before, but I feel like I’m doing something bad by not working out today. 

curvecreation:

Let it go. Don’t hold onto that anger, that inner hurt…it’s not worth it. Just let it go and forgive yourself. Take the time to sit, calm down and think about what just happened. Find your triggers. Learn the lesson life has given you.

And above all else try not to take your frustrations out on your body. It’s not your bodies fault. It doesn’t make you fat or disgusting. It doesn’t make you worthless. It makes you human. It means you are capable of emotion. It means that you want to change.

Forgiveness and acceptance are two big steps in personal growth and beating the binge. Try to let it go. Because you’re beautiful and I just wanted you to know that.